Monday, April 25, 2005

A place to call "home"

This morning we went to a little church about 30 minutes from us. It wasn't our first time visiting and this time it felt different. I felt like I belonged just a little bit and it felt really...well...good. Lame word to use, but it just so nice to feel a part of something again. It is nice to be needed too. The church has about 10 people and the pastor who was just appointed is a family friend of ours. It is only natural for Todd and I to want to help so we plan to stay for a while. I don't know how long we will be stuck waiting for the "job" and we don't want to sit on the sidelines watching till one opens up. I believe that God would have us to continue ministering in whatever capacity we can. I really have sensed that God wants us there, too. So, for now we are home.

Monday, April 04, 2005

A new life has begun

Spring I think has finally arrived and with it comes new possibilities. New life will bloom, old tired beds of soil with soon be filled with intoxicating fragrances. Our lives certainly feel like freshly raked gardens. We seem stuck in a place we wouldn't have chosen to be in. It feels cold, lonely, and just plain uncomfortable. Kinda like the muddy soil we will soon bury new plants into. I hate being here in this miserable waiting place. Not knowing how long we will sit in the dark, longing to feel the life giving sunlight. Could it take too long? Will we lose sight of why we were brought here in the first place? I can only have faith that the Gardener who set us deep in this pit, knows just what we need and when. Its too hard to focus on what you don't have the eyes to see. And I am just too tired to spread my roots a bit to peak out of the grime.