Tonight we said "Goodbye"

Somehow I don't feel very poetic tonight. Rather drained of tears, emotions and all feeling.
Our church had a going away party and although we fought going, our decision to attend was somehow a relief to me.

They will miss us.

In my heart, I knew that there would be those who were sad at our departure, but I found no peace in that. Instead I dwelt on those who would be "rewarded' when we left whether with a new job, new position or because they just didn't like us very well. Though some of those individuals attended this evening, most were silent.

The voices I heard came from hearts that had been touched, changed or altered if only in a small way.

These small words and short goodbyes have clenched my heart and soothed the bitterness that has been devouring my insides. Even the one I have dispised most through this process did not stir up anger. I believe his words were sincere.

One family member who attended tonight reminded me that there are those who plant, those who water and those who reap the harvest. Though we wouldn't see the harvest of our efforts, I truly believe that seeds were sewn and hearts that may not show signs of growth, will one day bloom with ripeness.

Thank you God, for the small reminder that we are cared for
and that You used us to touch a life.